For so many years, I have molded myself to whatever people have expected or wanted me to be. This has made it incredibly difficult for me to figure out who I am, on my own, as a person. Lately I have been on this journey of finding myself. Call it a midlife crisis, call it whatever you want. I call it an awakening. The more I learn about who I truly am, the more I like myself and want to show myself to others.
This mixed media work represents the term "fake it 'til you make it". I have put on the smile that covers tears and insecurity. I have put on anger when I felt afraid. I have put on over-achiever when I felt like a failure, or when I have been in so much pain I was afraid to stop moving for fear of not being able to get moving again.
It is only recently that I have learned to be more vulnerable and authentic. A lot of that has to do with my current relationship and finding zero judgments of who I am. I feel safe to express myself without conflict. I feel that I can expose pieces of myself I have never been able to share with anyone else. I find myself being, well, myself! Fully and wholly, without reservation. And that feels amazing!
Healing and Authenticity,
Jenny
